Swallow your own cum, then tell us what you said/thought to yourself in the last few seconds before you did it. Also, post whatever video or photo got you to do it
I'll go first-- "I kept telling myself, my mind is empty, blank and empty brainwashing is good for me, while also saying I like cum, I love the taste, I will eat my own cum." Here was the video that got me to eat 3 times -- mmm: https://www.pornhub.com/view_video.php? ... dcd3fc9bcc
igodownonme wrote:I swallow mine every time I self suck... love it after edging for a while then when I shoot I feel it hit the back of my throat. It use to taste nasty, and so I didn't swallow it very often, but trust me, if you want it to taste better, even good, eat yogurt and a lot of fruit. The fruit makes it sweeter. Also when I give myself a quick handjob, I devour that as well. I remember in college we talked about the contents of semen, and it is actually good for you, even makes you happy! Dopamine.
I would swallow mine every time if I could self suck. I tried hundreds of times to suck my cock from the age of 11 to 30 with no luck. I just wanted to have a cock cum in my mouth so bad (this started back in the 60's) and was afraid of getting caught sucking cock that I decided to cum in my own mouth. Whenever I tried sucking my cock I always had my legs over my head while I was on my back and got to see my cockhead pointed at my mouth I would be so hot for cock that I would shoot as much cum into my mouth as I could and I love the taste of cum! I'm going to eat this load when I get done edging as well.
I remember one day going to the bathroom, pushing my ass against the wall and cumming on my face. That wasn't really all that planned. I remember though that the cum that did end up in my mouth left a slight burning sensation in my throat. I ended up on google searching and reading about guys experiences eating their own cum. To my surprise, just reading all the stories got me super turned on. And this is where things got interesting.
The more I read about cum swallowing, the more intense my desire for it got. I remember quite well that I wanted to give it a real go. Every time I shot a load of cum on my desk, I'd lose the urge. But I remember many nights where I would lay in bed just reading stories and wouldnt fall asleep for hours until I finally got out of bed and did something about being turned off for so long... but what I noticed is that 1) after being turned on and really hard for 2+ hours, I'd ooze a lot of precum and 2) once I finally decided to blow my load I shot out a huge amount of cum. This naturally made me think more about cum... and I started to crave it more.
Finally, I decided I needed to do it... I've watched enough videos of girls stroking and sucking cock until release and swallowing everything.. these videos got me wild for cum:
https://www.xvideos.com/video6798511/ar ... huge_loads_
https://www.xvideos.com/video32417417/m ... _cum_priva
https://www.xvideos.com/video7287592/ma ... _her_mouth
And this video:
https://www.tnaflix.com/cum-videos/Cyth ... ideo523247
Notice at 32:38 Tyla Wynn is stroking the guy with 2 hands real intense as he's cumming on her face and then she takes his cock and sucks him off? At 34:06 Ariana Jollee takes a lot of cum inside her and Cytherea helps her with drizzles.
So, enough of just watching scenes like this, I decided an action plan. One of these days I was going to finally do it; swallow an entire load of my cum. No backing out either. But I also wanted to make sure I'd shoot a huge load of cum because I wanted to taste as much of it as possible. I decided to stroke myself for DAYS but not actually cum (I wasn't edging though). I remember one day I had to run to the bathroom and my cock started leaking thick cum. Luckily, I had the place to myself for about a week so I was in the clear to do what I had planned on doing. After about 7 or so days of stroking without cumming and building up the desire, I spent a few hours reading forums about eating cum. I was laying in bed, rock hard and after about 3 hours I couldn't take it anymore and decided that was enough and I'd go for it. I got out of bed, turned on some porn (don't remember what it was) got my camera and tripod (wanted to record it) and decided it was time. My heart was racing and pounding real hard. I was nervous and couldnt wait. I stroked myself a little watching some porn, edging slightly so it wouldn't take much to push me over the edge. I went to the bathroom, flipped my legs over my shoulders, got my cock as close to my mouth as possible. I remember the first several times I tried swallowing my own I was breathing really heavily because I was so nervous. I stroked myself for a bit carefully... I remember trying not to stroke my cock too hard or too fast because I knew that if I did, I'd whip my cum somewhere other then my mouth. After a bit of careful stroking, I opened my mouth and stuck my tongue out as much as I could so I could catch every spurt and drop of cum. I stroked myself in as straight down position as I could to make sure my cum would flow directly down and it did, I started cumming a LOT, the first spurt of cum hit my chin and the next 7 went straight in. I remember the cum dropping at the back of my throat and I couldn't savour it to fill my mouth so I swallowed immediately. I let the rest of the cum collect in my mouth and it was so much that some of it dripped out when I checked it out in the mirror to see all the milky white cum in my mouth. I gave in swallowed it all. I noticed the missed cum on my chin that ran down the side of my lower cheek and I cleaned it up with my finger and swallowed that too. I remember it not tasting too salty but mostly watery with a little bit of a gooey texture.
I remember being overwhelmed at that point... I finally did it. I've watched so many girls suck a cock, stroke guys, let them cum all over their face but I did the most absolute hardcore sex act in the book; swallow cum. And my own too. I felt guilty but accomplished and satisfied.... like I joined some kind of elite group.
I've swallowed my cum many times since and the kink level of it is always sky high. Unfortunately, I still can't get myself to swallow every time, but the most of the time's I've done it I've filmed it all. It's so much fun watching a thick spurt of cum hit my tongue and then slide down inside me. I saw a comment somewhere of someone saying it's absolutely amazing to realize that in one quick moment you're releasing sperm and taking it back inside you. The feeling is absolutely amazing.
What finally motivated me to do it was the thought that I would be keeping my sperm within a closed system, which in a small way was self-sustaining. This made me really horny for myself. The idea that my own cum was going from my scrotum, through my penis, into my mouth, down my throats, and into my stomach, nourishing my electrolyte and fluid needs, felt really erotic. I felt like my own body was circulating sperm in a weird way and made me determined to do it. The first load I committed into my mouth was massive. I remember I hadn't cum in about 3 days. Fortunately it was a really positive experience and left me wanting more. The thought of my own hot cum flowing over my tongue and into my stomach was everything I'd imagined and hoped it would be.
I go in and out with the urges to swallow mine when I'm not selfing. As a general rule I always swallow when I self-suck. But, whenever I want to get back into the groove of swallowing regularly during non-self-suck sessions I just open my mouth wide, aim, and hit the bullseye as best I can. Often I end up giving myself a facial, but a lot goes into my mouth if I aim. Then, memory and pleasure-association kicks in and I wonder why I ever stopped. For me, the more I do it, the more I want. Just try to keep it out of your eyes. Cum tends to sting. Hell, once I shot a load into my ear! That's a trip, lol.nickyricky wrote:Such hot hot replies! I’ll be honest, I haven’t done any cum eating lately. Been too busy with work all this past year. I love reading everyone’s comments, the comments help me get back into cum eating mode. I tried to shoot a load into my hand today and eat but unfortunately couldn’t go through all the way with it. My brain is still too normal. But I want this.. so I will have to train myself back in! Wish me best of luck and looking forward to your encouragements! Mmmm
I had been wearing my moms lingerie for a couple of years when I was home by myself, and sticking things in my ass while masturbated, eating my own cum just seemed like a natural progression. I do remember early on when I would try to self suck, but I learned kinda quickly that I was neither well endowed, or flexible enough to do it. Instead, I would throw my legs over my head and jack off onto my face and in my mouth.
Nowadays I will still throw my legs over my head while I have a toy in me, or I will catch it in my hand and quickly slurp up my cum. I will also eat my cum out of my wife's pussy, I really like it that way.
A few times, when I was feeling particularly naughty, I jerked off at work and took my cum in my mouth...I wouldnt swallow then I walked around my office, swishing my fresh cum around in my mouth.