Hey all, it's been some time since I posted.
I recently have A LOT more masturbation time, and am really horned up right now.
In the past I used to smoke weed and / or drink a lot of alcohol to get myself into CEI/Cum eating, but nowadays I want to be healthy (and save money). Feeling and looking clean and healthy makes me even more attracted to myself.
I love shaving my body down, and though I'm not in the best shape, I still do think I look pretty good for being in my 30s. Of course, I still have ways to go to get a flat stomach and six pack abs, nice firm ass. But yah, more reason to go to the gym and look better. Plus when wifey returns she'll also be begging me for a good dicking down.
Hence, spent much of today shaving all my body hair off (keeping it trim is best). I also came in my mouth already one time after listening to some CEI trance, it was great.
I feel like I've started to get over my own inhibition about eating my own cum (especially a lot of the weirdness I used to feel in my 20s). I think the number of CEI videos and brainwashes have helped me to reaffirm in my own mind that this is me, and I like being this way. I like to look at myself while masturbating and see my cock, and see it throb, pulsate. I like to watch it shoot out the cum, especially if I've got my legs over head.
Sometimes I'll record myself or take pictures, and that further gets me into the mood (but because I'm scared of getting hacked I rarely keep the pictures on my camera or computer haha). But I do love seeing myself take a facial, it's a great reminder to keep doing it.
I guess the more I see myself enjoying CEI, the more I want to keep doing it (especially seeing myself in facials or swishing the cum around a while in my mouth, before drinking it down).
I love watching some of the other members here also play with their cum, I think jelbarths here is the veteran cum eater; so even on days when I can't have "alone time", I just love watching guys like him play with his cum, and remind myself later to do it.
I also like reading a lot about cum eaters, so I'm still on this forum and also reddit a lot (just lurking). Sometimes I won't yet be in the mood, so reading a lot helps me get horned up. Writing too makes me horny, hence this post will help me at a future date remember "how to get in the mood". Listening to brainwash mp3s help a lot too, and I'll make sure to repeat out loud how much of a cum slut I am, how much I need cum, how horny I am, how much I need it now -- that really helps me.
Currently I'm doing a 30 day challenge; I started it on Thursday night (look up Crystal Knight One Month of CEI), and it's been following it to the letter. Knowing I have to eat my cum or save it up for a big load later to eat is really motivating, and keeps me addicted to being sexy cum eater. (I came in my mouth today, so I want to do it again, but I'm limited to once a day for now -- anticipation for next one is making me horny).
Here are a few more CEI challenges to look at for anyone interested:
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https://milovana.com/forum/viewtopic.php?t=19750
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https://femdom-pov.net/crystal-knight-one-month-of-cei/
As far as what else I'd like to do this month, I have over the years made some "online friends" to play with, but it's hard to sync up. A lot of them aren't even in the same time zone as me, plus some people are just too weird to ever want to meet in real life. Most of my online friends are in the sissy category, which is okay to me, and sometimes fun, but I feel like I don't want to be a sissy, I just want to enjoy cum. But that said, I do like tranny girls, and enjoy seeing them enjoy their cum too. So if I have a bit of weed/drugs, fun can ensue. Again, so much of meeting someone comes down to them having to be a good fit, hence I rarely do anything in real life.
But I do like toys, and I think that would be something I'd want to get in more this month. I want to get some anal plugs, maybe some dildos (vibrating kind), and cock rings. I also like flavored lube, (pineapple or mango is best). Usually if I cum in my mouth and if I have the lube, it tastes even better -- and that way I can still enjoy my cum if I haven't eaten any pineapples lately lol. (But yah, eating fresh food and working out ensures cum is tasty). If anyone has suggestions for toys, let me know -- I need to get some!
If anyone has brainwashing videos or mp3s to share, please send; I found the best ones that have helped me are the Madam Y series (Self Facial induction), CurseCum (an old one but good one from WarpMyMind and the remix by Mistress Leslie), as well as some good new stuff by Brookelynne Briar (she is so hot -- there is one in particular where she makes you fuck yourself hard before she lets you cum in your mouth, that was so great). I like other girls too like Amber Hahn, Ashley Alban, Crystal Knight, Princess Ellie Idol, Tara Tainton, Kelle Martina, and many more.
Alright yum! If you haven't had a mouthful of cum yet, I say go do it!! Enjoy, hopefully this post motivated you! Bon Appetite!