Re: Some shamman videos
Posted: Fri May 05, 2023 8:08 pm
Hey man!
That is not at all silly in any way! Instead, it's inspiring and rewarding to me. I've always thought my videos are a turn on but that's me. Knowing that they excite others so much is a big thrill for me. It really energizes my exhibitionism kink and even my self image. This talent is rare and I've been so very lucky to not only have the talent but the will to have trained it to such a degree. When I had such great sessions as shown in the first one, I would often imagine that the whole world is watching and that contributes greatly to my excitement. Even though I cannot do this right now, knowing others are still watching ME is still very much a turn on.
And I love to cum to my own videos, too. I'll often be getting into just how amazing it is, then I have to remind myself that it's ME, I'm watching! That can double up the thrill. Then I imagine other people around the world getting off to it at the same time and that just sends me to outer space.
As far as showing me orgasm, that was always tricky. See in order to get that deep, I usually had to hold my breath OUT. Meaning by the time I was ready to cum I was also often about to pass out from lack of oxygen!!! This made it very tough to cum while I was deepthroating. Most of the time I could get myself just to the edge with my mouth alone but would have to back off when I'd finally cum, so I could take a couple breaths to avoid passing out! I usually would edge myself as long as I could stand it and back out to stroke it for the finish. This is why there is almost no videos of me actually cumming. Any ones where I managed to cum inside my throat are therefore exceptionally rare. And super exciting to me! Now you know why
That is not at all silly in any way! Instead, it's inspiring and rewarding to me. I've always thought my videos are a turn on but that's me. Knowing that they excite others so much is a big thrill for me. It really energizes my exhibitionism kink and even my self image. This talent is rare and I've been so very lucky to not only have the talent but the will to have trained it to such a degree. When I had such great sessions as shown in the first one, I would often imagine that the whole world is watching and that contributes greatly to my excitement. Even though I cannot do this right now, knowing others are still watching ME is still very much a turn on.
And I love to cum to my own videos, too. I'll often be getting into just how amazing it is, then I have to remind myself that it's ME, I'm watching! That can double up the thrill. Then I imagine other people around the world getting off to it at the same time and that just sends me to outer space.
As far as showing me orgasm, that was always tricky. See in order to get that deep, I usually had to hold my breath OUT. Meaning by the time I was ready to cum I was also often about to pass out from lack of oxygen!!! This made it very tough to cum while I was deepthroating. Most of the time I could get myself just to the edge with my mouth alone but would have to back off when I'd finally cum, so I could take a couple breaths to avoid passing out! I usually would edge myself as long as I could stand it and back out to stroke it for the finish. This is why there is almost no videos of me actually cumming. Any ones where I managed to cum inside my throat are therefore exceptionally rare. And super exciting to me! Now you know why
