My best selfsucking experience
Posted: Sun Mar 10, 2019 8:56 pm
I have selfsucked since the time I could get an erection, and even when I was young, I had learned to lick my head until I came, but it wasn't until my twenties that I learned how to do more than throw my legs over my head and try to pull my hips down to my mouth. In my twenties, I began learning new positions that let me get an inch or more past my head and give myself blowjobs. I was very athletic and because I sucked my own dick almost every day I was very flexible. Sometimes I could really have sex with myself where I would get so much of my dick in my mouth that I could use my hands and arms to pull my legs in but was just thrusting dick handsfree into my mouth.
While I was a regular at this and have several stories about times when sucking my own dick took me to levels that felt transcendent, the best story happened one November when I was about 25. I was home visiting my parents, and the spare bedroom was a loft space on the far end of the house from anyone else's room. A private space meant for guests. The bed was a queen sized bed in a bedframe made from metal post around three inches across, only each other had a central post and two more post in a triangular pattern around it. So I learned I could wedge my head against one post and the other two were far enough apart that I could pull my legs over my head and use my ankles to pull my crotch to my face. When I would do an x-position this way, I could get a lot of dick in my mouth.
Most nights I sucked my own dick this way was in fits and starts and I struggled to breath so I could only suck for a few seconds at a time. I'd work up to cumming and almost cum before Id have to stop to catch my breath, and getting in and out of the position took time. Id have to use my hands to pull my dick into my mouth, and it would get soft while I got in and out of position so I'd have to get hard again. Eventually my scrotum would tighten against my groin and I'd know that I was ready. Then Id get in position and get my dick in my mouth and fuck into my face until I blew my cum all over my tongue and throat. But the strain on my back and the difficulty breathing made sucking my dick this way always just a little shy of perfect.
This one night, though, I felt very flexible but not as horny. I wanted to suck my dick because I love to suck my dick and think of sucking my dick as the highest form of sexual expression for me. But some nights are not as special as others. I started licking my head by bending over on the bed and jerking off. I watched some porn. I took off all my clothes and got a mirror to watch my lips touch my head. Finally, I thought about how much I wanted my dick in my mouth. Pure and hard and wet.
I got off the bed and put a throw pillow against one of the metal post. I started my process of working into the x position, but this time felt different. Maybe the angle of the pillow or how high I was reaching on the posts with my legs or something made it different. I was semi-hard from the effort but was around 6 inches long. With very little effort, I could slide my head into my lips and pull my hands away and use the leverage of my legs to thrust. But this time my breathing wasn't labored and my back didn't hurt. I felt like I was folded in half, and while I couldn't get my whole dick in my mouth, even semi-erect, I easily had half of it in. But because it wasn't full on hard, I wasn't having to force it against the top of my mouth or angle my neck to get more in. It was like I took my dick into my lips, which wrapped around my shaft and I could tongue and lick my head and the half of my shaft in my mouth. I felt all the pleasure of sucking my own dick but it was also tender and personal and I started feeling way more than just horny.
I didn't want this feeling to end, but my stomach started feeling funny so I stopped and uncurled for a few moments. I thought about getting the mirror off the bed or trying to set up my computer to film myself but I didn't want to lose whatever it was that had let me get that perfect position.
I curled back up into an x and started caressing my dick as well and gently thrusting by pulling my crotch to my face. The best way I can describe what I felt was like I had the closed bud of a flower in my mouth and it was going to bloom into me like light (I know, weird, but it was an amazing experience), but again my stomach started feeling weird so I stopped again.
Some people probably think sucking your own dick is weird. Some think its just disgusting. I still am very embarrassed about how much sucking my own dick means to me. Most of the time I'm just horny and want to eat my dick, but this one night is one of the first times that all that shame and disgust didn't matter.
I couldn't wait long before I started to curl back into the position. I wanted so desperately to feel my dick like that again and never wanted it to stop. I didn't care about anything. I put my semi-erect dick in my mouth and pulled my legs hard to take it into me. My back relaxed and my breathing was fine--I breathed out onto my balls and breathed in the smell of my dick. This time when my stomach felt funny, I didn't stop. I get sucking and caressing and suddenly, I felt harder and fuller and like I was blooming. I have no words to describe what it felt like as my dick pumped a huge, warm, sweet load into my mouth. I came and filled my mouth and my cum and my dick. I started thrusting as the pumping subsided and I could feel my dick fucking my cum-filled mouth.
When I was finished, I stayed in the position, not wanting it to end. Even as I lost my erection, I wanted my dick to stay in my mouth. I swallowed my load while my dick was still in my mouth and tongued my dick to get any cum off it it and from the head that might still be leaking out.
I lay on the ground by the bed for a while to give my muscles a chance to relax. I still suck my dick very often and have had other intense and frankly spiritual experiences in addition to the sheer pleasure of sex from selfsucking. But this one night changed my perspective and has helped me accept this desire in my life.
I know guys suck their own dicks for different reasons. This experience helped me understand it for myself.
While I was a regular at this and have several stories about times when sucking my own dick took me to levels that felt transcendent, the best story happened one November when I was about 25. I was home visiting my parents, and the spare bedroom was a loft space on the far end of the house from anyone else's room. A private space meant for guests. The bed was a queen sized bed in a bedframe made from metal post around three inches across, only each other had a central post and two more post in a triangular pattern around it. So I learned I could wedge my head against one post and the other two were far enough apart that I could pull my legs over my head and use my ankles to pull my crotch to my face. When I would do an x-position this way, I could get a lot of dick in my mouth.
Most nights I sucked my own dick this way was in fits and starts and I struggled to breath so I could only suck for a few seconds at a time. I'd work up to cumming and almost cum before Id have to stop to catch my breath, and getting in and out of the position took time. Id have to use my hands to pull my dick into my mouth, and it would get soft while I got in and out of position so I'd have to get hard again. Eventually my scrotum would tighten against my groin and I'd know that I was ready. Then Id get in position and get my dick in my mouth and fuck into my face until I blew my cum all over my tongue and throat. But the strain on my back and the difficulty breathing made sucking my dick this way always just a little shy of perfect.
This one night, though, I felt very flexible but not as horny. I wanted to suck my dick because I love to suck my dick and think of sucking my dick as the highest form of sexual expression for me. But some nights are not as special as others. I started licking my head by bending over on the bed and jerking off. I watched some porn. I took off all my clothes and got a mirror to watch my lips touch my head. Finally, I thought about how much I wanted my dick in my mouth. Pure and hard and wet.
I got off the bed and put a throw pillow against one of the metal post. I started my process of working into the x position, but this time felt different. Maybe the angle of the pillow or how high I was reaching on the posts with my legs or something made it different. I was semi-hard from the effort but was around 6 inches long. With very little effort, I could slide my head into my lips and pull my hands away and use the leverage of my legs to thrust. But this time my breathing wasn't labored and my back didn't hurt. I felt like I was folded in half, and while I couldn't get my whole dick in my mouth, even semi-erect, I easily had half of it in. But because it wasn't full on hard, I wasn't having to force it against the top of my mouth or angle my neck to get more in. It was like I took my dick into my lips, which wrapped around my shaft and I could tongue and lick my head and the half of my shaft in my mouth. I felt all the pleasure of sucking my own dick but it was also tender and personal and I started feeling way more than just horny.
I didn't want this feeling to end, but my stomach started feeling funny so I stopped and uncurled for a few moments. I thought about getting the mirror off the bed or trying to set up my computer to film myself but I didn't want to lose whatever it was that had let me get that perfect position.
I curled back up into an x and started caressing my dick as well and gently thrusting by pulling my crotch to my face. The best way I can describe what I felt was like I had the closed bud of a flower in my mouth and it was going to bloom into me like light (I know, weird, but it was an amazing experience), but again my stomach started feeling weird so I stopped again.
Some people probably think sucking your own dick is weird. Some think its just disgusting. I still am very embarrassed about how much sucking my own dick means to me. Most of the time I'm just horny and want to eat my dick, but this one night is one of the first times that all that shame and disgust didn't matter.
I couldn't wait long before I started to curl back into the position. I wanted so desperately to feel my dick like that again and never wanted it to stop. I didn't care about anything. I put my semi-erect dick in my mouth and pulled my legs hard to take it into me. My back relaxed and my breathing was fine--I breathed out onto my balls and breathed in the smell of my dick. This time when my stomach felt funny, I didn't stop. I get sucking and caressing and suddenly, I felt harder and fuller and like I was blooming. I have no words to describe what it felt like as my dick pumped a huge, warm, sweet load into my mouth. I came and filled my mouth and my cum and my dick. I started thrusting as the pumping subsided and I could feel my dick fucking my cum-filled mouth.
When I was finished, I stayed in the position, not wanting it to end. Even as I lost my erection, I wanted my dick to stay in my mouth. I swallowed my load while my dick was still in my mouth and tongued my dick to get any cum off it it and from the head that might still be leaking out.
I lay on the ground by the bed for a while to give my muscles a chance to relax. I still suck my dick very often and have had other intense and frankly spiritual experiences in addition to the sheer pleasure of sex from selfsucking. But this one night changed my perspective and has helped me accept this desire in my life.
I know guys suck their own dicks for different reasons. This experience helped me understand it for myself.