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Hi guys, i need some advice, i have been in to anal play and watching gay porn for years now, but lately, all i can think about is sucking another guy off, and even him fuck me, but, i can NOT get the nerve to meet anyone,, i am too shy and in the closet, i need some advice, on how to make myself take this to the next step, i know once i get past the first time i will be Very into this.

One big problem is I end up loosing the nerve waiting for the meetup, or the drive over, etc.
I need something all of a sudden, and for the guy to be controlling.

I NEED this to happen, what should I do???

Are you looking for casual sex or something more? If you're just looking a no-strings hook-up you should really have to work at NOT hooking up with all the men cruising online these days.
Sounds to me like you could use someone to talk with about this stuff. I think you should look around and see if there's a gay/bi/queer/whatever counseling service or hotline where you can talk some of it through.
And if you're going to hook up - please remember that there are a lot of nasty diseases/infections that you can pick up from sex, and that, contrary to barebacker propaganda, AIDS is still a really big deal and you're much better off not being exposed to it. If you're near a city with a Jack-off club it's a great, safe way to ease your way into it. Check out nyjacks.com for a list of clubs.
Good luck, buddy - you can figure this out!
Al