Perfect Circle - How I learned to fellate myself.

[PerfectCircle]

That autofellatio might be possible didn’t occur to me until I read a letter titled “The Perfect Circle” in a copy of Penthouse Forum that I had pilfered from my older sister. Everyone knows those letters are fake, but I had to try it. The first time I tried, I failed to reach by several inches. The next night, I spent some time stretching and tried again. The tip of my tongue touched the tip of my penis. That was enough to encourage me to start a program of stretching every night.

This was in the late 1970s. I was a skinny teenager. I was 5’ 7” and about 115 lbs. My endowment was average though it appeared impressive in proportion to the rest of my frame. I wish I had a nude photo of myself from back then to serve as inspiration for my next diet.

Within days of starting practice stretches, I passed the milestones of first putting my lips on the head of my penis and then getting the glans past my teeth. A mayor problem those first nights was that I put so much focus into getting into position that was completely flaccid by the time my mouth was within reach of my penis. This became less of a problem as I became more proficient.

I was eventually able to get the glans and about an inch of the shaft into my mouth with little effort. Occasionally, I would get enough of my penis into my mouth to cause a gag reflex. I had read Xaviera Hollander‘s advice in Penthouse about training by sticking a finger in the back of the mouth to train away the gag response. I had delusions of eventually being able to deep throat myself, but the furthest I ever got was about three inches past the lips.

I didn’t know what to do when I first had my penis in my mouth. I actually tried blowing and sucking, which demonstrated to me that the terms “blow job” and “sucking cock” are just euphemisms. I quickly figured out that it was all about licking the glans with the tongue and stroking with the upper shaft with the lips.

There was a sense of accomplishment in being able to perform autofellatio; however, I couldn’t share it with anybody. A popular schoolyard taunt at the time was “Your back is hinged so you can suck yourself.”

I generally used the “C” or “P” positions with my hands together under my thighs. I was always frustrated with the position because I didn't think it placed enough curvature in my lower back. I became flexible enough to firmly sandwich my erect penis between my lower abdomen and my face, but that was no good because it placed my mouth closer to my belly button than the base of my penis. There was no Internet back then, so I missed the advice that the “C” and “P” positions work better if you put a rolled-up towel under your groin.

I experimented with bringing my knees behind my shoulders. Based on a cartoon in Penthouse of a contortionist performing auto-cunnilingus, I thought that my legs should remain as straight as possible. If there had been an Internet back then, I would have learned about the “X” position and would have known to cross my legs behind my head. I also experimented with the plow position with my shoulders and upper back on the bed and my pelvis and legs overhead. The Internet might have inspired me to try planting my feet against a wall to gain added stability and control.

I eventually developed a routine that started with a series of stretches. Then I would get into the “C” position. I would bob several times as I stretched my back to reach my mouth downward over the head of my penis. I would then commence licking with my tongue and stroking with my lips to stimulate the glans and the sensitive area on the front of the penis at the top of the shaft. I would continue licking and bobbing as I progressively increased the depth of penetration into my mouth. To climax, I would grab the shaft just below my mouth with my right hand and apply a few strokes. I would let the ejaculate pulse into my mouth and would swallow. Then, I would relax my position slightly and hold just the glans to my lips as I began to go flaccid. I would wait for the last few drops to ooze out and lick the head of my penis clean. Then, I would slowly unfolded and relax for a deep sleep.

No mater how long I licked and stroked, I never reached climax without added stimulation from my right hand. To me, it was like trying to masturbate with my left hand. The level of stimulation and arousal was great, but I just couldn’t reach orgasm. I would lick my penis and stroke with my lips until I literally had to come up for air. I kept thinking that I would achieve orgasm with just a little more licking and stroking, but it never happened.

A big advantage that I found in autofellatio was that the ejaculate went into my mouth rather than making a mess on the bed sheets. That was a big advantage on many occasions when there was nothing readily at hand to clean up the mess from normal masturbation. I have seen complaints that ejaculate is too salty or tastes of ammonia. The taste and the warm slimy texture never bothered me.

I engaged in autofellatio throughout my late high school years and college. Once I started working, I settled into a middle-class American lifestyle complete with poor eating habits, too little exercise, and an expanding waistline. As my weight crept past 140 lbs and continued upward, I was not longer able to fellate myself. Then, in my mid-30s, I took up bicycling in a serious way. My weight plummeted to 130 lbs. My mouth was again able to reach my penis and I resumed periodic sessions of auto-fellatio. Then, for a variety of reasons, I stopped riding the bike. My weight started rising again. I have not fellated myself since.

A few years after that, I finally had an Internet connection and did a search on “perfect circle.” That was when I first learned the term “autofellatio.”

A friend recently sent a photo of me as a skinny college student. My wife remarked about how thin I was. I responded by casually mentioning that I was so thin that I could fellate myself. Her response was along the lines of “Oh, my!,” and the subject was dropped. I wish I could do a demonstration for her, but I am now too old and fat.

In looking around the Internet, I see chat room comments to the effect that autofellatio is something only gay men do or is the start of a slippery slope toward becoming gay. I don’t understand the logic. The pleasure comes from the penis, not the mouth. Performing fellatio on myself didn’t result in an urge to fellate other men just as conventional masturbation didn’t result in a desire to grab the penises of other men.

The one regret that I have about autofellatio is that I didn’t explore it further while I was still able to do it. Achieving the “X“ position would have been a major accomplishment if I had just known enough to try it. Nothing bad happened from performing fellatio on myself. My back sometimes hurt, but I didn’t injure myself. I didn’t become gay or lose interest in women. To any skinny young man interested in trying, I would say start stretching and go for it.

[aleingang69]

Thanks man - that's a great description of your experiences - wonderfully detailed.

I think the Web HAS made a huge difference in the number of men who are solosucking and I'm very proud of the part I've played in that.

Thought about getting your bike out or joining a gym to get back down to sucking weight? It'd be good for you in many ways, and maybe you could even show your wife

Al

[PerfectCircle]

Yeah, I'm sure autofellatio is now far more common than the 1% stated in the Kinsey reports. Autofellatio has now entered the popular culture, so I'm sure more adolescent boys are hearing about it and trying it. Autofellatio has been in porn since at least the late-1970s when Ron Jeremy filmed "Olympic Fever". The recent near-mainstream movie "Shortbus" demonstrated autofellatio for a much larger audience.

Regarding getting back into shape, I wonder about the age of the oldest person on this forum who is able to perform autofellatio. I see gray beards in some of the photos. I would worry about having a heart attack while naked on the floor with my legs crossed behind my head and my penis in my mouth. I wouldn't want to be found dead in an embarrassing position like David Carradine.

[aleingang69]

And - another perfect circle here - Shortbus was influenced by me and this site. I know the filmmaker and the guy who sucks himself in the film. He used solosuck.com as part of his personal training program to get "in shape" for the film!

I hear you about worrying about age and possible ill consequences of solosucking. I think it's a very, very individual thing - I know of men in their 70s who still do it, but we all have to decide what risks we're comfortable with.

As to dying with your cock in your mouth - any enlightened people who find out are going to say "at least we know he died happy"

[Ziggurat]

Bravo! Nice intro story. I too was young when I discovered I could, and now 20+ years later, I have more desire to do it than I did when I was younger... I maybe did it once every few months... Now I'd like to do it once a week at least!!

[seahorses]

Would you be inspired knowing a 66 year old is still going strong?

[Eddie]

Not too many of us were self sucking when "The Perfect Circle" article in Penthouse was published back in the 1970's(?), but I remember being very excited when I found it. There was very little media of any type available related to self sucking at that time. I kept the article for a long time and might still have it somewhere in a box.

I believe the closing line in the article went something like this: "The only risk you take is the possibility of becoming a self-suck junkie."

How right he was.

Eddie

[blacksunshineaz]

Was it an article or a letter? Does anybody know which issue this was?

[Eddie]

Sorry...it was a letter to the editor.

Eddie

[PerfectCircle]

My recollection is that the "Perfect Circle" letter appeared in Penthouse Forum, which was (is?) sort of a Reader's Digest for porn - all words, no photos. Much of the magazine was made up of "letters" to the editor that described the readers' sexual experiences. I put "letters" in quotes because they almost certainly were works of fiction written by staff writers. You can find on the Internet spoof letters that were supposedly rejected by Penthouse Forum that describe sexual encounters that went badly. The "Perfect Circle" letter would have appeared circa 1977, though I could easily be off by a year or two. I could easily be mistaken about the letter being in Penthouse Forum. I believe Penthouse Magazine had a similar letters section.

[Eddie]

You are right perfect circle. It was a letter in Penthouse Forum. I've had a brain glitch on this one.

Eddie

[blacksunshineaz]

Some time ago someone had mentioned Penthouse had published an article about autofellatio and I have been trying to find it, but have had no luck finding it. They did one in January 2001 which I do have, but the one in question was many years before that and I thought this may have been it.

[seahorses]

Okay, there seems to be some differences here in the UK. We have, or did have back then, both Penthouse, which contained a section called Penthouse forum that gave advice and published readers letters. There were also pinups throughout the rest of the mag. There’s also a much smaller pocket size mag called Forum that’s published by Penthouse, with just advice, letters and articles and no pinup’s. I remember reading something on autofellatio in the larger mag, but it was more common in the smaller forum. In fact I still by the occasional Forum with the hope it might just contain something about it