Cum Addiction... is that bad?
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Cum Addiction... is that bad?
Hello! I'm very new too this forum and very happy I found this site.
I've been needing to get this off my chest and speak to other people about this addiction that I've realized I've had for some time now and need some relief.
It started about 5 years ago when I was with my ex. We were very much use to watching porn with and without each other. Most of the time I would watch typical muscle porn and just get off. As my surfing went on I discovered video "cum-ulations" of videos of guys swallowing their partners cum. Then I came across the absolutely beautiful art of self-sucking. Man how I envy those that can do it. I've since then, have tried multiple of times and never could so I I was just start shooting my load into my mouth as my legs dangled over my head.
After that becoming a monthly activity when I was alone, I would then have my ex start humming in my mouth as I jack myself off, and the first time he finally shot into my mouth, I savored the taste. Ever since that moment of tasting his delicious sweet seed, I became hooked. It became almost daily of having swallowing his load.
After 5 years went on, we broke up and that was the end of my feeding. I had since then started following tumblrs and etc but never really tried swallowing anyone else's load. I mean I had some certain times but that rare. Then I got into another relationship who I'm very happy with and the sex has been great but now I'm finding myself craving the taste of semen. I have shared with my boyfriend that I love to swallow and he has a few times specific have let me slurp and gargle and swallow his load, but not as often as I crave. When he's out of town and I'm by myself I usually smoke pot and get high and just watch porn. My favorite thing to do is edging with a cock ring and shoot my load into a shot glass and save it, wait about 15-30 minutes till I start getting horny again and start watching porn again and as I'm stroking my dick, I get that urge to taste my load. I usually drop a little tiny bit on my tongue to get that taste, but as soon as I taste it...
its like a monster within comes out and I feel of surge or pleasure and excitement and pour the whole shot glass of cum into my mouth and gargle it around my teeth and just let it sit and my mouth and right when I about to cum, I swallow my own load as I cumming AGAIN.
I usually do that monthly. But after all this, I have to ask.. am I wrong for having this obsession. this addiction.. to semen..cum.. man juice? Its all I think about, and its not that I want it from others, because I do love my boyfriend, but sometimes he doesn't give it to me enough. and I just want more. Ahh I need your thoughts...
Thank you for reading and for your acceptance.
I've been needing to get this off my chest and speak to other people about this addiction that I've realized I've had for some time now and need some relief.
It started about 5 years ago when I was with my ex. We were very much use to watching porn with and without each other. Most of the time I would watch typical muscle porn and just get off. As my surfing went on I discovered video "cum-ulations" of videos of guys swallowing their partners cum. Then I came across the absolutely beautiful art of self-sucking. Man how I envy those that can do it. I've since then, have tried multiple of times and never could so I I was just start shooting my load into my mouth as my legs dangled over my head.
After that becoming a monthly activity when I was alone, I would then have my ex start humming in my mouth as I jack myself off, and the first time he finally shot into my mouth, I savored the taste. Ever since that moment of tasting his delicious sweet seed, I became hooked. It became almost daily of having swallowing his load.
After 5 years went on, we broke up and that was the end of my feeding. I had since then started following tumblrs and etc but never really tried swallowing anyone else's load. I mean I had some certain times but that rare. Then I got into another relationship who I'm very happy with and the sex has been great but now I'm finding myself craving the taste of semen. I have shared with my boyfriend that I love to swallow and he has a few times specific have let me slurp and gargle and swallow his load, but not as often as I crave. When he's out of town and I'm by myself I usually smoke pot and get high and just watch porn. My favorite thing to do is edging with a cock ring and shoot my load into a shot glass and save it, wait about 15-30 minutes till I start getting horny again and start watching porn again and as I'm stroking my dick, I get that urge to taste my load. I usually drop a little tiny bit on my tongue to get that taste, but as soon as I taste it...
its like a monster within comes out and I feel of surge or pleasure and excitement and pour the whole shot glass of cum into my mouth and gargle it around my teeth and just let it sit and my mouth and right when I about to cum, I swallow my own load as I cumming AGAIN.
I usually do that monthly. But after all this, I have to ask.. am I wrong for having this obsession. this addiction.. to semen..cum.. man juice? Its all I think about, and its not that I want it from others, because I do love my boyfriend, but sometimes he doesn't give it to me enough. and I just want more. Ahh I need your thoughts...
Thank you for reading and for your acceptance.
Re: Cum Addiction... is that bad?
I don't think you're addicted at all. You know what you like, and for the most part, you enjoy it. The only issue I think you have is that you THINK it may be considered wrong. Or you think that others will THINK its wrong. In the end, whatever you do in the privacy of your own home is your business. As long as you aren't hurting anyone else. Be honest with yourself. Be honest with your partner. That's the only real advice I have.
My wife, who I call Crimson, is very bodily fluid conscious. She hates cum. She only wants me to cum in her pussy. HOWEVER, she usually lets me cum where I want because its important to be supportive. Because I'm lucky enough to have a supportive partner, I try to keep it in her pussy about 85% of the time and it works for us. When I'm masturbating though, its plain and simply put, none of her business how and when I do it.
I probably masturbate about 4 or 5 times a week. Crimson has a very low sex-drive, we maybe copulate once or twice a month. This used to be a big issue, but its not anymore, since I love masturbating and don't do it simply when I can't have sex. I shit you not, there are times I'd RATHER do it myself. And I always switch it up. Sometimes, its a fast wank to orgasm, but that's rare. More often than not, its a slow wank to bliss. Sometimes a fast dildo ramming with a suction cum dildo up against the wall. Sometimes its a slow dildo ride with the phallus sitting on the floor and I fantasize about the few gay experiences I had as a teen. Sometimes its a doll or a fake pussy/ass toy. Sometimes it gets even weirder... but its never WRONG. And even if some people THINK it is....
I don't give a fuck. I simply don't bother myself with what others think of my alone time. Because its MY alone time. I'll do with it what I please.
And I hope you all do the same! <3
Randy
My wife, who I call Crimson, is very bodily fluid conscious. She hates cum. She only wants me to cum in her pussy. HOWEVER, she usually lets me cum where I want because its important to be supportive. Because I'm lucky enough to have a supportive partner, I try to keep it in her pussy about 85% of the time and it works for us. When I'm masturbating though, its plain and simply put, none of her business how and when I do it.
I probably masturbate about 4 or 5 times a week. Crimson has a very low sex-drive, we maybe copulate once or twice a month. This used to be a big issue, but its not anymore, since I love masturbating and don't do it simply when I can't have sex. I shit you not, there are times I'd RATHER do it myself. And I always switch it up. Sometimes, its a fast wank to orgasm, but that's rare. More often than not, its a slow wank to bliss. Sometimes a fast dildo ramming with a suction cum dildo up against the wall. Sometimes its a slow dildo ride with the phallus sitting on the floor and I fantasize about the few gay experiences I had as a teen. Sometimes its a doll or a fake pussy/ass toy. Sometimes it gets even weirder... but its never WRONG. And even if some people THINK it is....
I don't give a fuck. I simply don't bother myself with what others think of my alone time. Because its MY alone time. I'll do with it what I please.
And I hope you all do the same! <3
Randy
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Re: Cum Addiction... is that bad?
I don't know if it's an addiction necessarily, I go through times when eating my own cum isn't enough, and I do eat a lot of my cum.
The other times though, I want to suck cocks and swallow cum, I really like doing this. In fact one night I met two partnered men at a hotel and sucked both of them off while the other watched and masturbated. Went home with their cum in my belly, it was a great time. Other times if I'm in a city where there is an adult bookstore and gloryholes, I'll suck cocks and swallow cum for hours.
I understand the craving - but not sure addiction is the right word.
The other times though, I want to suck cocks and swallow cum, I really like doing this. In fact one night I met two partnered men at a hotel and sucked both of them off while the other watched and masturbated. Went home with their cum in my belly, it was a great time. Other times if I'm in a city where there is an adult bookstore and gloryholes, I'll suck cocks and swallow cum for hours.
I understand the craving - but not sure addiction is the right word.
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Re: Cum Addiction... is that bad?
I have to agree with nudehiker.
Addiction may not be the right term but I also enjoy my cum as often as I can.
I just don't seem to have enough opertunities that I would like.
I am not into other guys and my wife is very conservative so having to wait
For the right moments can be frustrating
Addiction may not be the right term but I also enjoy my cum as often as I can.
I just don't seem to have enough opertunities that I would like.
I am not into other guys and my wife is very conservative so having to wait
For the right moments can be frustrating
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Re: Cum Addiction... is that bad?
Honestly I am addicted to my own cum-- I think about it every time I have a solo session to masturbate. I am always thinking of taking a huge self facial, or swallowing gobs of cum straight from my cock (legs over head -- my favorite method).
My fantasy is to just be covered in cum, cum facials, swallowing lots and lots of cum. When I'm by myself, I'm always spending hours upon hours just going through my favorite CEI videos on Pornhub, reading about cum eating advice, watching facial videos, and thinking generally how good it would feel to take a load in my mouth.
Sadly, my brain sabotages me way too much. Although I want it badly, I also feel like I can't go through with it because I might l regret the decision later-- what if I can't get it up for my girlfriend later when she wants sex, what if I start becoming a sissy because of my cum desires and then in the "real world" mess up my life, what if I get cuckolded, so on. My real life self is very much straight-- and if people were to find out about my fantasies-- I'd be destroyed lol.
Thus, I keep my cum addictive thoughts buried here on the internet. But at the same time I love this part of myself. It's my most favorite activity, and if I can manage to go thru with a cum session ending with cum in my mouth, I feel absolutely awesome. If I don't go through, I deeply regret it later. The only trick I've found that works well for me is to separate the fantasy from reality-- basically if I'm with my girlfriend in general, then I go back to being 'straight'. However if I'm by myself-- which is rare-- then I can go to town with myself. Sometimes I wish I could take more time away from my relationship just to have more solo sessions lol. I feel being 'straight' too long makes me hate this part of myself, which in turn makes me hate myself for hating myself! I'm a crazy addict! LOL. Weed, poppers, alcohol-- they are the best for ridding oneself of inhibitions! I find hypnosis also works pretty well for me-- at least with lowering my inhibitions while dialing up my horniness. That said, if one can truly be okay with their cum loving side and not need any substances and not worry about anything "real life" related while in the fantasy-- then that's the best thing in the world. I guess it's just ultimately practice and not letting anyone take away that ME time
My fantasy is to just be covered in cum, cum facials, swallowing lots and lots of cum. When I'm by myself, I'm always spending hours upon hours just going through my favorite CEI videos on Pornhub, reading about cum eating advice, watching facial videos, and thinking generally how good it would feel to take a load in my mouth.
Sadly, my brain sabotages me way too much. Although I want it badly, I also feel like I can't go through with it because I might l regret the decision later-- what if I can't get it up for my girlfriend later when she wants sex, what if I start becoming a sissy because of my cum desires and then in the "real world" mess up my life, what if I get cuckolded, so on. My real life self is very much straight-- and if people were to find out about my fantasies-- I'd be destroyed lol.
Thus, I keep my cum addictive thoughts buried here on the internet. But at the same time I love this part of myself. It's my most favorite activity, and if I can manage to go thru with a cum session ending with cum in my mouth, I feel absolutely awesome. If I don't go through, I deeply regret it later. The only trick I've found that works well for me is to separate the fantasy from reality-- basically if I'm with my girlfriend in general, then I go back to being 'straight'. However if I'm by myself-- which is rare-- then I can go to town with myself. Sometimes I wish I could take more time away from my relationship just to have more solo sessions lol. I feel being 'straight' too long makes me hate this part of myself, which in turn makes me hate myself for hating myself! I'm a crazy addict! LOL. Weed, poppers, alcohol-- they are the best for ridding oneself of inhibitions! I find hypnosis also works pretty well for me-- at least with lowering my inhibitions while dialing up my horniness. That said, if one can truly be okay with their cum loving side and not need any substances and not worry about anything "real life" related while in the fantasy-- then that's the best thing in the world. I guess it's just ultimately practice and not letting anyone take away that ME time
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Re: Cum Addiction... is that bad?
Aw man that is my favorite, with weed, beer and poppers. My sessions can last up to 3-4 hours straight without cuming, then finally when I feel like I've edged enough, I flip over with my legs over my head and just have it. I always without a doubt have the biggest orgasm with so much cum, it's intoxicatingly amazing. I should record it.
Re: Cum Addiction... is that bad?
In my opinion, NO, it is not only not bad but it is fantastic that you love his and your own cum, I mean, everyone has their likes and dislikes, we are all different. SO just enjoy your "addiction".
I was worried about my love of cum until I realized that there is nothing wrong with that love. Some people love sushi, not me, I love cum.
I was worried about my love of cum until I realized that there is nothing wrong with that love. Some people love sushi, not me, I love cum.
I enjoy having my cock sucked as much as anyone else but sucking a cock and swallowing the cum is on another level.