Thoughts on envy...?

[jaypee]

Any thoughts on envy? I am so envious of guys who can DO IT... which must be related to the huge sexual turn-on I get from watching SS videos... always end up jacking off... after years of celibacy, porn is quite a temptation to me right now... powerful stuff that in moderation can be a powerful sexual/spiritual stimulant..

A poster at www.lpsg.org said the guys who are REALLY obsessed with SSing are the ones who CAN'T... he must have been talking about me... the curiousity of what that must FEEL LIKE... don't know if I'll ever be able to do it, but when I turn away from the videos and do some stretches, it seems to help... I guess its kind of like envying a guy with a big dick... altho that's never bothered me as much.... anyone else have any thoughts on this?

thanks,

JP

FYI here is pretty good discussion of envy from a spiritual viewpoint:
http://www.berzinarchives.com/sutra/sut ... lousy.html