I had no idea this was so popular

[Bakogaynerd]

I really had no idea that this kind of thing was that popular with people. Self sucking and self fucking that is. Here is my story...

When I was 12 years old just about when I started noticing little hairs growing above my dick I started having these sex dreams that I could suck my own dick. They were very vivid dreams, it seemed and felt like I was really doing it and then I would wake up and be disappointed that it wasn't real. Mind you, I was still in elementary school at this time, 6th grade. I started experimenting in the bathroom on the toilet, trying to reach it. I did this every day and my back was in so much pain. I would be playing in the school yard on the swings and I couldn't tell anyone that my back was in a lot of pain because how would I explain why lol. So I kept quiet about it.

Over the next year of practicing every time I went into the bathroom, before I got in the shower I would sit on the toilet or on the floor and try sucking my own dick. When I finally got my own room I was doing it in my bed at night after everyone had gone to sleep. I finally got to where I was able to take it all in and I was able to lick my balls. My back pain wasn't as bad but it was still there. I don't know why I stopped doing it but I did.

When I was 23 and I got in the relationship I am still in I bragged that I could do it and he wanted to see but it had been 10 years since I had done it so I had to start practicing again. It wasn't that difficult and I was able to do it in no time. Before I met him I tried to stick my dick in my own ass but it never worked out because I always had too much lube on me but when I was showing my partner that I could suck myself I started trying to fuck myself as well. I think that it helped me that I used a cock pump which stretched it out more.

It has been more than 10 years since I have done it but when I was doing it I always came inside. He thought it was the hottest and strangest thing he'd ever seen in his life lol. The reason it's been 10 years is beause that's how long we haven't been having sex and I've been going nuts for years. I hate it when I go into heat like a dog lol. I've been helping myself in the shower with a dildo a lot lately, nearly everyday and so I thought about it today and tried but the lube I use (J-Lube) is very slick so it was very difficult getting it in. Also I haven't pumped in 10 years so I'm sure if it were a bit longer it would help.

Anyway, I am so happy I found this site, I'm going to browse around now.

[aleingang69]

Glad you found us, man! I hope we can help you to get more pleasure into what sounds like a frustrating situation - keep on posting and maybe we'll see some pictures or video from you someday - sounds like you're a very talented man!

AL

[Bakogaynerd]

Thanks, I will be again one day when I can reach it. I can't even see it yet lol. That is one of my weight loss goals, not just being able to see it but to be able to suck it again lol. I don't have too far to go, already lost 30lbs. 70lbs to go.

[aleingang69]

Excellent, man - here's to using the possibility of getting your hard cock back in your mouth as a tool for weight loss. Can special Weight Watchers courses for men be far behind?

[Bakogaynerd]

I have been taking a LOT of showers lately if you know what I mean lol. On Sunday mornings I have the house to myself so I can take as long as I want and I do. I've been trying to penetrate myself but it just doesn't seem to want to get hard enough and sometimes it's too hard. Anyway, I don't know why it was so easy in the mid 90's but so difficult now. I used to be able to do it on command and... omg it's frustrating that I can't now. I guess practice makes perfect right?

Oh and about weight watchers, I've been on this diet and lost over 30lbs but it's boring me and I've started gaining, I think I gained 3lbs but I'm working on it. I just have a tiny bit more to go (70lbs lol) then I can start trying to suck myself again. That alone is my motivation to lose the weight, well one motivation anyway.

I've never been able to talk about any of this to ANYONE! EVER! So it's so freeing to be able to just say it here with no judgements. I would love to IM with someone if anyone wants to.

[aleingang69]

Really glad you found us, buddy - it's great knowing that I provide a forum that's really helpful to lots of men.
Good luck with the weight - we're rooting for you, man!

AL